Random Thoughts....

So as this Thursday evening comes to a close shortly, just a few things rattling around in my head to mull over: one of the recent GEICO commercials (which have thankfully scrapped focusing on the "Cavemen"; more annoying than not) starts off with that 1940's-looking & sounding pitchman asking "Can switching to GEICO really save you 15% or more on your car insurance? Do some people use smart phones to do DUMB things?"--basically, why do smart PEOPLE do dumb things? In the last 24 hours, I have been made painfully aware (as have others in an organization I am a part of for the last 6 years, one I originally was in many years ago) of a close friend of many years, maybe not a rocket scientist, but seemingly an intelligent enough human being, involving themselves in some very suspect behavior which will ultimately cause their downfall, affecting their life & career in a number of devasting ways--1st & foremost, I am truly shocked if what is being said even has an ounce of truth to it; I really don't believe this person is that stupid--but recent reported events don't paint them in a very flattering light--they have too much at stake in their lives to throw it all away like this--he has also put this organization in a bad position as well--being right there in the trenches of this emerging situation, I don't know if this will end any way but badly & it makes me sad & angry at the same time--plus, several others in the group (though not in upper levels as I have been in the past couple of years) have already been drawn into this, though not to the level that the person in question has--I have always considered myself a fairly intelligent person, but I have done enough stupid things in my life to have had many people I've known throughout my life (family & friends combined) shake their heads in disbelief or worse yet, lose all faith & respect in me, & the fact that a lot of those people are still in my lives (some I have hurt badly or disappointed time & time again, no matter how long ago it was) has everything to do with their characters & capacity for forgiveness & compassion & nothing to do with me--I have burned many a bridge in my past & had to work like Hell to gain all that back with too many people--I don't know if this person can do that at this point--and as the saying goes "more's the pity"--apparently, this has all gone down in just the last month or so, but has been brewing or had the germ of it sewn many months ago when our organizational endeavors began--I am glad I've recently begun this blog to be able to lay this out on here & vent--I have only discussed it with my wife & one other person (both are involved in this group as well), but needed to get it off my chest even more, and as anyone who has ever written poetry, musical lyrics, essays, journals, diaries, etc. will tell you, sometimes you have to see it on paper (or your computer screen or whatever) to really get your feelings out--I can't truly say this has made me feel better about the situation, but it helps in a fashion--and so, now I think I've exhausted the point & I'm exhausted as well, so I say Good Nite to you all :)