Sunday, August 21, 2011

From "Happy" to "Sleepy" to "Grumpy" to "Dopey" (Oh, wait, those are names of dwarves, too?? Hmmm...)

Hello again--as I close out the weekend, let me explain the title of today's post: It seems that I personally ran quite the gamut of emotions & states of physical & mental being the last couple of days--it started with some plans yesterday morning that had me up a little earlier than I would've been in light of what I thought a friend of mine & I were doing (although I woke up in a good enough mood--the "happy", Part 1); the ensuing plans & the day were a lot more varied & action-packed by just mid-day; my friend & I ended up hanging out & preparing for the nite's activities a lot ealier, did a lot of errands & running around, but we did get to spend some "guy-time" together more close-to-home (the women-folk joined us in stages as the day progressed)--by the time I got home, it added up to a 16-hour day (combining the rest of the"happy"--good food, libations, some nice smokes & good company as always--with the "sleepy" by the time I got to bed, after 1:30am, including some last-minute cleaning-up from the pup, some kitchen-duty, etc.)--then this morning, I woke up in a less-than-good mood that I couldn't seem to shake all day--the "grumpy"--barely out of bed & snapping at the wife, & after some breakfast & finally getting out of the house & picking up my mom to all do some shopping & errands, I was kind-of unbearable for the most part, a lot of it in some very public places, & ended up feeling pretty bad about it--too much "sweating the small stuff" as I referenced in an earlier post, & my wife & mom bore the brunt of all that--after the mrs. & I dropped mom off & got home, I was still out-of-sorts & not right the rest of the day (hence the "dopey"part) until I made us some dinner, relaxed a bit more & put myself in a better mood to not end the day & weekend on a bad note--bottom-line, it wasn't the kind of Sunday it should've been or we all expected--I blew the "small stuff" up to ridiculous proportions (although not ALL my fault, the point is I take most of the blame)--I know I get more frustrated at some stuff than I should, but some of those closest to me have to cut me some slack sometimes as well as pick up some of the slack when I falter & maybe remember that we all do things that irk each other, but when some of those things are repetitive & happen more than they should, people do get frustrated--it has to be as much "give and take" as anything else, not just in marriage, but in all aspects of human interaction--I guess what I'm trying to say is, when I'm off on my usual tangents, & have to remember how those around me usually act & react to things, we all have to take responsibility for what we say to each other & how we treat each other, & all have to correct the nagging & negative stuff, not just expect each other to fall in line & act accordingly; none of us are perfect & human beings as a rule somehow find it easier to expect others to unpack our "emotional baggage" for us every time & be the ones to change our behaviors, not to do it ourselves...but even though, as Billy Joel sang "You're Only Human--you're SUPPOSED to make mistakes", it's nobody's job but our own to correct those mistakes & not repeat them, especially when they're at the expense of those we hold dear--just because they will always love us & vice-versa, doesn't make it right--so we have to make it right the best we can & remember that we can always do better--and on that note, I say Good Nite--peace & love, my friends :)

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