Isn't It Ironic (Don'cha Think??)

So, here is my 1st blog for the new month (and once again, a more & more paltry output from me has me contemplating the end of this little experiment, but we'll see...)--briefly, here goes: I seem to have been befallen by 2 separate incidences of that old saw, Irony; Example One: For a blog who's title includes the sentence "From A Lover Of The Spoken Word", I have used words to inadvertently & most accidentally destroy 2 friendships, one a longtime friend (and both tied together: this is a couple of friends who are dating, the woman fairly new to our circle of friends, the guy a friend of many years & someone I'm on a BBQ team with, among other social activities; suffice it to say, I thought I was venting about a situation with the woman, who has now worked with me for awhile, by texting back & forth with my wife; after the 1st 2 texts, a friend on Facebook messaged me & I answered her but stayed on the text/posting thread, so that my next bunch of texts about said woman, unfortunately derogatory in nature (again, frustation & venting because a lot of changes & new rules @ work & other stuff--we had both been talked to already by our new Office Mgr. & I by my my main boss as well; I have been given my Mondays back that were taken away when we all got forced down to 4 days a week @ the beginning of this year & have been handed other responsibilities--I even got a slight bump in pay--woo hoo!!--with several provisions added including not spending extra time engaging this person or letting them engage me in endless/mindless conversation) ended up on FB; the 2nd example of Irony is maybe more of a stretch, but here goes: Back in 2005 when I rejoined The Andrean Players theater group @ St. Andrew's Church here in Flushing after a 16-year absence, I did so because I heard they were going to do "The Wizard of Oz" & I had always wanted to play the Cowardly Lion; we all know the story: he's the "King of the Forest" & lost his "noive" (courage), so he compensates by acting all scary & fierce, but deep down, he's a fraidy cat, for lack of a better term; @ the end he finds he always had his "noive" & his courage all along (stay with me, folks)--the day after this happened, after she had already made a post about it the nite before, she basically said "the coward couldn't face up to what he did" and she was right; I lost my "noive" & didn't have the decency to rectify this or @ least try to as soon as it happened--I do like the woman & see she has made my friend happier than he's been in years, so I wouldn't try to destroy that; I also would never purposely put all that on FB for all the world to see; however, by doing what I did, I've now lost both friendships to the point that I know I've affected our circle of friends, if not yet, then in the foreseeable future; I have been distraught since I realized I did this last Thursday afternoon & deleted the posts & threads; however, I sat here with the woman the rest of the day & did not address it at all; I basically let it go until I saw she left a post (not mentioning me) addressing it that nite & another one the next day--then my friend, himself, left me a private FB message last nite around 9:45pm & said he saw my posts, he knows it was me, our friendship is finished, etc--I answered him right away & sent another FB message & 2 texts this morning & a message to her on FB last nite as well, apologizing profusely all-around & trying to explain myself--I even had my wife message the guy, but I know it's to no avail; I've been miserable since it happened & just left a kind of public apology post on FB a little while ago with the proviso that I am not going to discuss it any further-- siggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(  - - - a hard way to learn a lesson, but I got what I deserved, I think; now I just have deal & live with the consequences--anyway, friends, thanks for listening & I hope to tty soon.